Swing!!

4th of July

Half Way Baby!!

Today I am half way through this pregnancy. I hear the heavens singing! Or maybe that is just the voices in my head singing praise because of how I feel. The last two weeks have been better. I'm not saying I'm all the way normal, and back to my old self..BUT I feel like I can function at some points during the day. I don't have my head in a toilet all day and all night. I can eat more than just white toast with butter. I even got dressed two times last week! I'm only at the docs once a week now, and I even got my hair done. I know!
It may seem silly to some to make such a big deal of these improvements, but they really feel like answered prayers. We got to stay home all last week, and do normal family things. Jared is still caretaker, but I was able to help out. I never got to feel better with Graham, and I think I will forever say that those nine months were the hardest of my life. I realize this feeling might not last, and probably wont. BUT I am relishing it now, and am so happy to be on the downhill slope!!

Alas, we ARE alive!

A new baby?! This was the day many months ago when we told Graham that he would be getting a new brother or sister. I was about 4 or 5 weeks prego(before my life stopped) and thought he needed a little cupcake for the surprise. This little boy is going to be a great big brother. I feel very blessed to be intrusted with the wonderful responsibility of taking care of 3 boys. This is my first post back, so I better not over due it..more to come, hopefully:)

I love this boy so much!!! I hope he remembers this "happy mama" and not "sick mama on the couch."

The best dad a kid could have:) Could not do ANY of this without this man right here. Thank you Sweet for being so good to us. I promise I'll take care of you the rest of your life:) I'm not even going to try to catch up on all of the things I've missed posting the last few months. Yes, months. If you know me, you know I've been basically dead, barely hanging on. BUT I am determined to get some posts up for our blog book so we can have some memories logged during these 9 months of h!@#, I mean bliss:)

Fun Night with Papi and Grandma Connie

We went over to Brett and Connies for dinner tonight. We had a great time, and it was so nice to spend some time together. Dinner was great! Steak Carnitas Tacos, and Strawberry shortcake scone dessert..I'm still full! Graham was too busy to be bothered with his dinner, but somehow found some room for dessert:)

This one of Grandma Connie is at our house, but we didn't get any of her tonight, and this is such a sweet pic.

Yummy!!

Thanks Papi and Grandma for a great night!

Lately

This kid LOVES being outside! We have had some good days lately and some colder ones, but I don't think Graham can tell the difference. He loves playing in the dirt, walking around the backyard, and playing on the deck. If it is outside he wants to be a part of it. We put on his "dirt shoes" and head out. I think he would stay out there all day if we would let him. Its so cute watching him walk, stubble-run out the back. He will stubble, look at his hands, then brush them off and keep going.
The only negative part of all of this is that when you bring him back in, he loses it. His mind, literally. He throws a huge fit. It he hears the door open he runs for it. He also loves trucks lately. Anytime he sees one, or even hears one, he says,"truck, truck, truck". Can't wait for some grass instead of dirt to play on! We went up to my mom and dads when Jared had to work in Logan again. I took my camera and snapped a few shots so I'd have something to post:)

Why is that vein in my neck bulging out so bad?

Truman loves Katie, and Katie humors Truman. She does act like she likes him though. This was so funny..Truman wouldn't leave her side. She kept taking steps back and he would move his bum to be touching her somehow. It must have been her Village Inn aroma he couldn't get enough of:) Love ya Kate!

Graham lights up whenever he sees Grandma Vickie, and has gotten used to going up to her house. He loves Grandma Marge, but doesn't necessarily love her to hold him. He can't be bothered to hold still that long. Grandma Marge has come up everytime we come to visit since Graham was born. I'm not kidding! She is such an amazing person. I hope you know Grandma, how much those visits mean not only to Graham, but to me as well. We love you. We love you too mom:)

I don't know why it feels like we've been so busy lately, but it sure does. I can't really pinpoint our busyness, all I know is at 8 oclock I'm pooped and feel like its the first time I've sat down all day.

Proof to myself that I have had happy pregnancy days

So this past Friday we found out that we are pregnant! I know, I know I never thought I'd do it again. And NO I didn't forget about the last one. Trust me, I remember every little, horrible, tortureous moment of it. Ugh, makes my stomach churn just thinking about it, not to mention the anxiety. It really was the hardest, darkest time of my life, 9 months of my life!! Thats a LONG time!! We started getting the feeling that maybe it was time to expand our little family a few months back. We both thought it was early, and thought we would ask Heavenly Father what he thought..of course he thought it was time:) I had my IUD taken out, and one month later we were pregnant. Guess it was time:)

I was one day late, and couldn't take the waiting. Just for curiousity's sake I bought a pregnancy test. I had butterflys in my stomach all the way home from the store. I came home, took the test, came in the kitchen to wait my 3 minutes, and there it was..that lovely solid pink line. It was so much darker than with Graham. No faint line this time. I ran downstairs, woke Jared up from his nap and showed him the stick. We were both so happy and excited!! Not telling anyone was killing us! We want to wait as long as we can.

This is supposed to be a positive post for me to look back on in 7 weeks when I'm puking and miserable. I feel so great right now! Really, I am going about my every day life. Nothing feels different yet, and I pray for it to stay that way numerous times daily. I work out normally, eat normally, and even sleep good (because Graham is). I realize I am very lucky, and am trying to be positive. I also realize that I'm really only 5 weeks or so along, so the torture is yet to come, or so they say. Im savoring this happy time. Jared has never seen me as a happy, healthy pregnant woman. Its been such a fun week.

We joke around about a little "grahamina" in my belly and are definetly giddy about a new baby on the way. Its exciting, and scary. I've been reading as usual, and I can worry with the best of them, at the same time I also feel a lot more relaxed this time. I realize this is because we've done it all before, and there is comfort in that. We have the doctor all lined up, and I think she will be great. She is Jared's Aunts doctors who has been through anything, and everything with her pregnancies.

I feel so blessed, and again, nervous. I just keep praying for healthy mom and baby! New baby should arrive right around Graham's old due date. November 18th. Haven't been to the doc yet, so its not official, its just babycenter.